On October 4, 2015 we welcomed Taysen Anthony Garner to our family. He was born at 33 weeks gestation, weighing 4 pounds 6 ounces and 17 inches long of perfection. I had been admitted to the hospital six days earlier due to having contractions. At 25 weeks into my pregnancy I was put on bed rest at home and we were fortunate to have Taysen stay put for another eight weeks. On the night of October 3, Kaia and Ian had a slumber party with me at the hospital. Little did we know that Taysen would make his appearance the following day. We joke that he was just ready to join the party with his brother and sister because my water broke the following morning while the kids were still at the hospital with me. Luckily we had time for someone to come pick up the kids and Mike to get there before he did come. It definitely wasn't a fast, crazy delivery like Jaylen was, but still came earlier than we had hoped for. We have been so fortunate with how well our kids have done being born so early.
Being transported to Cook Children's Hosptial |
My first time holding Taysen, 1 day old |
Dreaming of Jaylen, or at least I like to think so... |
One will always be missing |
I am SO GRATEFUL for Taysen though. He definitely is a huge blessing that we had been hoping for. As much as my heart hurts for Jaylen, my heart is over flowing with happiness that Taysen is here, healthy and strong. There is a different feeling with this baby from my others. I think when you lose something so special, you really learn to value each moment. I have lost a baby so I know that it can happen. With every cry that Taysen makes, every poopy diaper, all the lack of sleep that I am getting, etc...my attitude is different. I cherish the moment. I appreciate that I have this chance to love and raise another child. My heart hurts and will always hurt that Jaylen is not here, but my heart is also so full that we have Taysen.
So in love and grateful!! |
Daddy's pretty happy too!! |
I am so happy for ya'll and know this has to be precious and yet sad. Praising God for giving you abother blessing to hold til you can hold your other sweet one again in heaven too.
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